Let’s Talk – I Went Big, But Should I Go Home?

Remember when I made the post about traveling/relocating in Let’s Talk – Go Big or Go Home? Do you also remember when I said I wish I could just get up and go? Well guess what? Yup, you guessed it. I made the blind leap to up and leave. I’m currently in the big, I mean BIG, city of Jacksonville, FL and I must admit, I love it, however, I wish I would have committed sooner to the move and had money saved.

I was first given the chance to move down here several months ago from my cousin who’s husband was being stationed here in Jacksonville, but I allowed myself to doubt the transition and I backed out of it. Once again, fear made its mark and influenced my thoughts and decisions. As time grew nearer to the move and my gut kept telling me I was about to miss what looked like my best chance to leave, I panicked and made a last minute decision to go. This indeed was a huge gamble on my part. I had no place to go once arrived, no job, and only my car. I figured, hey people have done it before me, why can’t I? Pause for nervous laughter.

I had just enough money to make the road trip down with no real concept of what I would do after the fact. The lord must have truly been shining on me because my cousin, who also decided to come down, landed a house sit for 3 weeks upon arrival and extended the offer to me. I was so relieved that the home owners were so laid back and willing to allow me to stay and assist in the house sitting. Still, there is enough stress to kill a small horse. So far I’ve been blessed to have landed a job within the first 5 days of arrival and visited a couple prospective apartments within a realistic budget. Although things are looking up my anxiety couldn’t be higher. There are still some unresolved issues back home, I don’t yet have any income to put towards housing, the cousin who has helped me tremendously may now be depending on me to help in establishing residence within the next couple of weeks and again I’M BROKE. Jesus take the wheel!!!!

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With all that being said, I do rely on Jesus to get me over the hump of my doubts, fears,  and anxieties for the ensuing weeks. I know that even though times look dark the God above can create a way out of absolutely no way. Right now that is what I have to hold on to. My faith in that must be stronger than my anxieties and fears. IT HAS TO BE if I want to see this thing through. I wish I could have stuck to my earlier decision and not have wavered from it. Looking back I think that I was asked too many times if I was sure. The more someone asks me this question the more I begin to doubt if I should follow through or just make due with my current course, or that maybe they’re no longer sure of me going and now I’m no longer sure. Either way it goes I’m here now and I have to dig deep to make things run smoothly.

WHATEVER THE MIND CAN CONCEIVE AND BELIEVE, IT CAN ACHIEVE

-NAPOLEON HILL

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I just started reading a book entitled “What Should I Do With My Life?” and it states in the introduction that most of the time people are forced to tap into their true potential out of struggle vs. desire. While we are in a good situation we only state what it is that we want to do, but when we are in a position of hard times we tend to act on it. Now more than ever I can see that I HAVE to go big because the only other option would be to go home. Before coming down here it was definitely just a statement, but now it is my reality and my reality is that I do not want to go home. I would love to call Florida my new home, so that only leaves me with one option; GRIND GRIND GRIND WITHOUT CEASING!!!

This may be by far the scariest yet most fulfilling time of my life, so while I’m here I am going to make the most out of it and do what I have to do in order to see my goals come into fruition. There is no giving up! I have to go big or I have to go home and going home is not a part of my list of goals!!!

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